Is it MY CALLiNG?!!

MIRACLES OF RAMADHAN

One does not realise the "gifts" Allah s.a.w. brings us this Holy Month of Ramadhan until.....

you begin to see a Transformation from 'Uncovered' to 'Covered'!

Same Old Me

Same Me Uncovered

I used to think that it will take a lot of rebelling and persuading before I decide to take a "BIG" step to "Cover" myself. But God works in miracles and I can sense that my transformation or hijrah towards the Hijab will be a smooth transition. I'd like it to be a smooth transition because I think I still fear that I may not be ready for that "BIG Step"...and should I choose to embark on that journey, there's no looking back (even though it's for the best!)

I also fear that my personality will not suit the image that I will potrait. It's always been a gender issue that a 'covered' girl must act a certain way ["..bersopan...ayu...baik ...rajin solat etc.."] In fact I will persevere to be THAT kind of girl but like any transformation it will take time. On the other hand, I have come across many 'covered' people who behave even worse than I. Therefore, I am glad that at least, I am true to myself and am only embarking on this New-found journey because I AM READY!

Anyway, these days, the Muslimah fashion industry has boomed and has created many different styles and designs to suit each individual character. I am glad that I received my 'calling' now....but even more so that I received it before it is too LATE!

I also know that for those people who know me, they will question and wonder what happened? What made me decide to "cover-up"? In short, "Nothing MADE me decide, I just decided it was time."

I know many people who have transitioned and they are still the same person they were before. It's not the appearance or the attire that makes the individual. It's the person himself, all body and soul that makes the person that you are.

I also know that I'll be subjected to lots of criticisms and hope that there's more Good than Bad. I have been called "makcik" whilst wearing a hijab but on the other hand, I have been called "adik". So like a coin, there are 2 sides of the story. You can hate me for 'covering' up or you can respect my decision for covering-up. At the end of the day, only I can decide which way to lead my own life.

Having said that, I am not willing to take a GIANT LEAP...instead, I will take teeny-weeny steps, little baby steps, tip-toes..... before a FULL TRANSFORMATION!!! Wish me luck and May Allah give me strength to face anything that comes in my way. Amin.



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